Steel's Diary

At the cusp of a new day, week, month or year, most of us take a little time to reflect on our lives by looking back over the past and ahead into the future.  We ponder the successes, failures and standout events that are slowly scripting our life’s story.  This process of self-reflection helps us maintain a conscious awareness of where we’ve been and where we intend to go.  It is pertinent to the organization and preservation of our long-term goals and happiness. The questions below will help you with this process.  Because when it comes to finding meaning in life, asking the right questions is the answer. In one sentence, who are you? Why do you matter? What is your life motto? What’s something you have that everyone wants? What is missing in your life? What’s been on your mind most lately? Happiness is a ________? What stands between you and happiness? What do you need most right now? What does the child inside you long for? What is one thing right...

This morning I was reading a book at my favorite spot on campus when a 16-year-old kid sat down next to me and said, “That’s a great read, ain’t it?”  So we started chatting. He told me he was getting ready to graduate from high school in a couple of weeks and then immediately starting his college career in September.  “But I have no clue what I want to do with my life,” he said.  “Right now I’m just going with the flow.” And then, with eager, honest eyes, he began asking me one question after the next: “What do you do for a living?” “When and how did you decide what you wanted to do?” “Why did you do this?  Why didn’t you do that?” “Is there anything you wish you had done differently?” Etc, etc, etc… I answered his questions as best as I could, and tried to give decent advice with the time I had.  And after a half-hour conversation, he thanked me and we parted ways. But on the walk home I realized the conversation I had with him was a...

If you feel like you’re at the end your rope with little slack left to hold on to, realize your mind is lying to you.  It has imprisoned you by reciting self-defeating stories in your head – stories about your mistakes, what you should have done differently, and so forth.  Your mind has built a mental cell out these negative thoughts and you’ve begun to believe you are actually living in it. But you’re NOT. You are alive in an immense world with infinite destinations.  Take a moment to remind yourself of this fact.  Go outside.  Look up at the sky and the clouds or the stars.  THIS is the world in which you really live.  Breathe it in.  Then look at your current situation again. Remember that adversity is the first path to truth.  Your defeats often serve as well as your victories to shake your spirit and let your glory out.  You just have to hold on tight, embrace the daily pain and burn it as fuel for your journey. Here are fou...

I have had to say "Goodbye" more times than I would have liked . But Everyone can say that. And no matter how many times we do it , even when it's for the greater things , it still stinks. And tho we might never forget what we have given up We owe it to ourselves to keep moving forward But, what we can't do , Is living our lives always afraid of the next goodbye Because Chances are , We are not going to stop . The trick is to recognize when a "Goodbye" can be a good thing; When it's a chance to start all over again .

Those Nights when no song on your playlist can't describe the way you feel Neither can you, yourself describe how you feel But then the only thing you feel is a dire need for physical contact But then again , there's no one to call , since you already built a wall around yourself. You already ran out of some literature Power's is out You crawl to Google, and Network turns to a bitch You go back to your music playlist .... You choose some Coldplay to see if they can help You check some Chris Daughtry And all sort of Rock songs Then again you switch to some Rap to see if there's gonna be some comic relief in any of the lyrics , but there's still no smirk on that face And the music shuffles Then It seems like Florence Welch understands :) After awhile, you call for some of the indie artists You try to re-live the day in your head as the music plays You remember the times you smiled and what was funny that day And you also remember the sad moment that...

Today, I took the liberty of asking my Girlfriends and other woman how and what happened in their Lives when they where 19. Sigh.  The Stories/ News wasn't great but apparently, they (somehow) got through it . It seems Being 19 as a female has its qualms, cause speaking for myself , it has been the worst stage of my life....so far or maybe ever. . Everyday I keep praying in my heart and spirit that I get through this stage as quickly as possible, but Who am I kidding. Apparently, Nature has a way of making you "Her Bitch" . And I know she's finding it really Hysterical. Some women got. Pregnant at 19 Some tried or attempted suicide at 19 Some ran away from their home(s) at 19 Some got their Hearts and soul broken at 19 Basically, being 19 is a stage that leaves an indelible scar across one's soul . It's torturing, It could make you lose your mind; make you look demented, Brings and Leaves you in a state of complete disillusionment; Life Begins...